This post has been brewing in my mind for awhile. Truth be told, I’ve recently been in a bit of a rut. Initially after the big move, I was so busy settling in – unpacking, cleaning, getting TT used to going to nursery…. We also had made some plans that didn’t quite go as we wanted, and in between the waiting and results, things came to a standstill for me. Even though I’ve had a bit more time for myself with TT in nursery a few mornings a week, I haven’t had any motivation to get anything done. I’ve felt depleted, both mentally and physically. I haven’t felt like writing, and some mornings after TT leaves for nursery, I’ve taken refuge in my bed again despite being wide awake.
So, it’s about time I got moving again and this post is one of the ways I’m restarting my engine. I figured, if I did just a few small things then maybe the rest will begin to fall into place. I needed something to awaken my body and inspire me, so this past week I’ve tried to make a few changes. And to tell you the truth, I do feel energised and ready to take on the world again.
Here’s what I’ve managed to accomplish (after quite a bit of procrastination):
1) Re-examining Plans
It was time to pause, rewind, fast-forward and then push play. I needed to think about what had been happening, what I wanted to happen and how I could achieve that. I’ve found it very important to be at peace with my decisions; if I’m unable to reconcile myself with something, I NEED to make changes or remove myself from the situation. In view of the things that didn’t quite work out, I’m still not willing to give up yet. There’s really no use dwelling on it, but instead of shelving these plans, I’m leaving things be for a little while and plan to revisit it in a few months. I’ve also tried to focus on what’s happening in the next few months, the most important being our coming visit back home for Christmas. Out of the past 8 Christmases, we’ve spent only one in Singapore so it’s about time we experienced this holiday season with our huge family. I can’t wait to for us and TT to spend time with her grandparents, great-grandparents, aunties, uncles, cousins and friends. This makes me very excited and happy, and I’m now all geared up for December. Having something wonderful to look forward to certainly does provide inspiration (especially in the department of shopping)!
2) Trying something new
I don’t mean to take the plunge and do something shocking. Just getting out of your comfort zone, in the smallest of things, can surely make a difference, even stopping to look at something you don’t normally pay attention to. I’ve always enjoyed cooking, so this week I’ve tried out a couple of new recipes. A friend gave me some pandan leaves that she had brought back from a recent trip to Singapore. It’s not something that I’ve been able to find at the local shops so I was thrilled with this gift. By luck, I came across a Recipe for Nasi Lemak from a Singaporean foodie website, The Meatmen. Nasi Lemak is a local dish of rice cooked with coconut milk and pandan leaves, usually accompanied with fried chicken or fish, eggs and sambal. Besides providing a taste of home, it inspired me and the next day I made some Kaya (coconut jam) with the pandan as well. A true Singaporean, food (and cooking) makes me happy, and my success with these new recipes created a sense of accomplishment. Now I can add these to my cooking repertoire. This might be something small, but perhaps it’ll spur me to other unfamiliar adventures. Who knows what will come next?
3) Getting my butt off the couch
Exercise and I haven’t been getting along the past few months. I haven’t literally been on the couch, but have just been busy with TT and doing routine stuff around the house. Needless to say, my previous Pilates routine in Muscat was shot to hell after we moved to Abu Dhabi. I’ve dragged myself to the gym to pound the treadmill a few times but I’m not as motivated as when it comes to Pilates. Luckily for me, a new gym opened up in the building and they have Pilates (and other) classes. So last week, I decided that I needed to give it a go and I enjoyed the class with this new instructor. I’ve felt more energised since and will be trying out more classes next week ( I hope I stay on track!).
I only have a few hours on some days, but I’ve managed to do a few things here and there while TT’s away at nursery. Quite a bit of the time, I’m wondering what she’s doing, and I’m always happy especially when she sees me enter her classroom and her face lights up with a huge smile as she yells, “Mummmmy!”. But after more than two years of spending all my time with her and looking after her without any help, I’m finally getting some time for myself. And I’m really thankful to be able to recharge, not just for myself but for TT and my husband as well.
This week was refreshing and felt like a good start for me. When you feel like you’re stuck, what do you do to move forward?
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